my glamorous life

This is a poem that was given to me by my Dealer...after I was addicted.

If my glamorous life is appealing to you and you want to try me cause you have nothing to loose. I must offer you a bit of advice; You're a fool and you better think twice. I destroy homes and I tear families apart, I take your children and that is just the start. I am more precious than diamonds and more valued than gold. The sorrow i bring is a sight to behold. If you need me im easily found; I live all around your schools and in your town. I live with the rich and the poor; I live down the street or maybe next door. I'm made in a lab but not like you think. I can be made in a tub or in the woods with things that come from under your sink. If this scares you to death it certainly should. I have many names but this one you know best, My name is Crystal Meth! My power is awesome try me once and you will see; But if you try me twice I'll own your soul. When I posses you, you will steal and lie and do what you have to just to get high! The crimes you commit for my narcotic charms won't be worth the pleasure you feel in my arms! You'll lie to your family and steal from your dad, and when you see there tears you won't even feel sad! Forget your morals and how you were raised I'll be your conscience and i show you my ways! I'll take kids from their parents and parents from their kids. I'll take people from God and separate friends! I'll take everything; your good looks and your pride. I'll always be with you right by your side! You'll give up everything; your family, your home, your money and all that you own. And when i am through you'll be all alone. when i am through with you, You'll be lucky to have lived. If you have tried me be warned this is not a game; I'll drive you insane. The nightmares i will give you and the voices in your head. The sweats, the shakes the visions you'll see. I want you to know these are gifts from me! You came to me not i to you, you knew this would happen! How many times were you told? You challenged my power and chose to be bold. My power is awesome, as I have told you before. I can take the best woman and make her a whore. Go ahead curse me with every breath! But you make the choice, will it be life or will it be Meth? You'll take unknown paths on the journey of life; Some will bring happiness others bring strife. My path is one that you should not cross; It is well taken and lives are lost. Now that you have met me what will you do? Will you try me; its all up to you. I can show you more misery than words can tell; Come take my hand and I'll lead you to HELL!!!

-when I was given this poem I had a gram a day habit. I lost a lot. But I learned and gained a lot. My daughter was the reason for me to clean up! But to say that i will ever be completely clean I don't know but I still have hope. I am proud to say that I use every once and a while. But this poem is always carried with me in my car. It keeps me grounded! When I feel the urge to get high i read it and it reminds me of who and what i used to be and i don't want to go back. The next time i might not be as lucky. Best wishes to everyone whose trying to quit and has quit. To the ones who are using everyday I hope you are fortunate to not loose everything most especially your freedom, family and life! Just slow down long enough to look in the mirror and see the black circles under your eyes and the sunk in cheeks and the sores on your body! Let that be enough for you to try to clean up some and slow your habit down! May God be with you cause a lot of the times that is the only one I had with me. No person or Drug can take that from you! Life is to great to loose all that time being strung out and tweaked out and not accomplished a damn thing except heartache and misery!